The nervousness that comes along with the end of a semester concerning grades has officially set in.  I order for my stay here at Ole Miss to continue to be free and under scholarship, I must make A's this summer and thus far and I have one definite A and one other that is almost becoming a definite B unless I can pull something miraculous.  I will plan a teacher meeting and see if an A is possible.  If it is not, I will then pray for devine intervention or the help of the teacher.  I don't know if she will help me.  I've never done this before, but I have attended all the classes, even the one this morning that I almost didn't go to and I believe that it is obvious that I have applied myself in the class so considering my circumstances, perhaps she will have some mercy.

Supper club #2 was a complete success last night.  Carrie was the interim chef and I will say that the meal was wonderful.  This leaves next week's supper club chef vacancy for me to fill.  This gives me plenty of time to hone my skills and consider my preparation and presentation.  There is one rule to this though... the meat in the meal must be chicken.  Yes...I know what you are thinking..I practically live off of red meat myself, but due to some members of the club's (no name(s) will be mentioned) dislike for red meat and others dislike for fish, poultry (including chicken and turkey) is our only option.

The past couple of days or I guess I should say weeks, I have been lifeless or I guess I should say that I have been without energy.  That is, until today!  For the past while, my average bedtime has hovered around 2'ish.  Last night, I was able to shave that time by a whole hour to 1 and due to the cancellation of a class, I reveived nine total hours of sleep.  I have officially caught up on my sleep and am no longer a sleepless zombie that averaged four to five hours a night and couldn't even make it through a 10:00 movie without dozing.  Last night coupled with the copius amounts of sleep that I plan on getting this weekend will transform me into a new person!

Now that Tuesday's with Morrie has been completed, I have began the newest Mitch Albom book, The Five People You Meet in Heaven.  I also found out that in 1999, Oprah Winfrey in collaboration with Harpo (Oprah's Entertainment Co.) produced a made for T.V. movie based on the book Tuesday's with Morrie starring Jack Lemmon and Hank Azaria.  With this new found knowledge, I began scouring Oxford's somewhat sad supply of movie rental stores to find it.  I went to Blockbuster, As seen on T.V., and Midtown, but to no avail.  Finally as a last resort, I went to the Oxford and Lafayette County public library and although the did not have it, Hernando did.  So come Friday, Hernando will send it to Oxford and I will have it in my hands.  Exciting.

I am now going to continue my book......goodbye.

I gave blood this morning before work and they gave me a sticker that made me happy.  It says, "I saved a LIFE today . . . what did you do?"  It made me smile so when I came into work, I told everyone that phrase.

Tonight, I prepare dinner for Meredith.  Possibly my second true time to prepare a full dinner other that hamburgers or steak or something.  I'm excited.

So, I just finished the book, "Tuesdays with Morrie".  I must admit that I'll add it to my favorites list and for anyone out there who has not read this.  Read it.  You will not regret it.  I am definitely not one to cry under hardly any circumstances, but this book made me tear up and think about some things in a new perspective.  As Mitch spoke of Morrie lying there in his bed with nothing but a sheet over him, struggling for each breath, with the hospice nurses waiting by the door, I couldn't help but think of my own father who underwent the same ordeal.  Mitch should be ever so greatful that he had 14 Tuesdays with Morrie before he died.  I only had 2.   love you dad.

I'll end with a story of Morrie's from the book:

            "I heard a nice little story the other day," Morrie says.  He closes his eyes for a moment and I wait.

             "Okay,  The story is about a little wave, bobbing along in the ocean, having a grand old time.  He's enjoying the wind and the fresh air -- until he notices the other waves in front of him, crashing against the shore.

              "My God, this is terrible,' the wave says.  'Look what's going to happen to me!'

              "Then along comes another wave.  It sees the first wave, looking grim, and it says to him, 'Why do you look so sad?'

               "The first wave says, 'You don't understand!  We're all going to crash!  All of us waves are going to be nothing!  Isn't it terrible?'

               "The second wave says, 'No, you don't understand.  You're not a wave, you're part of the ocean.' "

               I smile.  Morrie closes his eyes again.

               "Part of the ocean," he says, "part of the ocean."  I watch him breathe, in and out, in and out.

I sit at work and the boredom drives me to a fear of insanity.  Last night, Meredith, Carrie, Elliott, and I enjoyed our first weekly supper club.  I must say it was a fun event and I also must admit that Meredith is quite the cook.  Carrie takes on the challenge of filling the shoes for next week's club and then I suppose that either Elliott or me will take on the next week or perhaps we could make it a team effort. 

I woke up this morning to the sound of a light drizzle on my window seal.  To say that it was a struggle to get out of bed could perhaps be a huge understatement, but I eventually made it to my eight o'clock.  Although I was ten minutes late, I still beat my teacher there because she is consistently 10-15 min. late and that drives me crazy.  Be on time!

Well... after being alone for a while, Chris has joined me to talk sports. so I will return later

Xanga has now become more of a form of less frequent outbursts than well put together thoughts on a somewhat more timely basis. 

Summer at Ole Miss has a officially started.  I am going to be a junior and I can say that this is my first summer in Oxford.  I can also say that I like it.  Although my class load is lighter than a normal semester in respective classes, I now spend more time on campus in class than I ever did during normal semesters.  I have found a job that makes me happy.  I work in the MS Law Research dept. of the Ole Miss Law School.  Wordy, I know, but extremely uneventful.  I spend most of my time reading, studying, and doing this...browsing the internet and Xanga.  Well...I felt like I was going to sit down and actually have alot of stuff to say, but now that I'm here, I don't. goodbye